3 weeks since I've seen him. And 6 days since I spoke to him at all.
Maybe this is his way of pulling away from me. If it is, at least we managed to hold on to the friendship that we had. We were friends for months before we slept together, and then spent 8 months or more sleeping together. Maybe we will actually be closer than we started out because of all that we've been through.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one that rationalizes everything. I never take anything at face value, instead I think about what it meant underneath it all.
Its like with the ex. He ignored me for a while, and all of a sudden he is answering my calls and talking to me on a regular basis. I cant just take that at face value and say "great he's wanting to be friends and talk again". No, I have to sit and think about everythign that he said, and if it means anything.
Why must I try to read something into everything? Instead of realizing that he just wants to talk, I automatically assume that he is thinking about getting back together or some other crazy idea that all boils down to us getting together again.
Am I reading into things way too much and setting myself up to get hurt again? I wish I knew what it was that keeps this one man on my mind all the time. You would think that the hurt he put on me would convince me to stay far from within striking distance. Yet over 1 year later and here I stand again...
Birthday: October 6th
Status: Single with booty calls
Occupation: Full time english major